Michelle Jacob

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It was the summer of 2013. they placed a beautiful baby into my arms and said congratulations I smiled but what they didn't see was my heart breaking on the inside what they didn't hear were my thoughts going what were you thinking what's wrong with you see I thought this baby was going to be the one rescuing my marriage but when I held him in my arms all I could think of was I'm so sorry I felt I may fail my son as a mom even before I started my journey of motherhood with him but that day I made a vow to him I walked I

was going to be the best mom I can be for him and that day marked the beginning of my healing Journey fast forward to 2018. I was in a place where I felt I could give back now I had learned enough tools out there to manage the pain I was feeling inside I was working as an OT at the time so I thought why not create a journal maybe put all those tools in there and my clients could benefit from it so one night I took my laptop I opened it I started typing away creating This Journal when all of a sudden I feel this

download I can't explain it until today but all I knew was I had to open a new Microsoft Word document I opened it and my fingers started typing what came through were the words you are enough a transformational journey into finding your inner happiness and peace I continued typing that day the skeleton of my book came through and the seven steps of transformation I needed to take it was acronyms miracle few months passed I was completing the last chapter of the book e in Miracle stands for extinguish the pain and move into your purpose so as I'm typing another download 200 million lives impacted and

healed I retracted God who am I that you think I can do this I'm Just a Nobody who is going to listen to my message I can't publish this book that day I went to bed with a heavy heart I knew I was going to fail God just like I had failed my son next morning I sat in meditation with that heaviness and this time I started seeing a vision in this Vision I see a little girl she's hiding behind a giant rock I see our hands trembling a heart pounding and she's hiding from a beast this Beast is ready to devour her if she

comes out from a hiding place and this girl has been hiding there for a very long time but something was different today I see a Divine being full of love full of light approaching this little girl reaching out to her bringing her from out of her hiding space and giving her a sword I can't fight with the sword says the little girl this isn't any sword this is a sword of love and light and with this sword you shall take down your Beast okay God if you say so I saw the little girl walk up to her beast and for the very first time she

looks at this Beast and when she looks at the Beast I see I am the one holding the sword and for the very first time I see who that Beast truly is and I see all my pain all my shame I see fear fear of rejection fear of Abandonment fear of judgment fear of failure and in the core of it all fear I'm not enough and I realized in that moment how long I have had this fear and how long have allowed this fear to keep me in my Hiding Place refusing to step into who I'm meant to be in this world and I took

that sword no more I said no more but I began to tremble who am I without my fears who am I suddenly I felt love and loving me I felt courage I took that sword no more is my past going to Define my future I enough a pierce love and light into the heart of my beast and I took that Beast down that day and I decided to publish the book and I can say I published my book I found a reviring minds and here I am still growing and if you're here still hiding behind a rock refusing to step into what you're meant to

be diffusing to step into that dream thinking you're not enough to do it I want to invite you to radio love and light into the heart of those fears can you turn to your neighbor and say to them you are enough go for it yes yes yes on a count of three can I hear this entire room shout out I enough one two three enough thank you

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